Trying to relax..

I AM -
[x] anorexic
[ ] ednos
[ ] bulimic --no, but bulimic tendencies, yes.
[i wish] living off diet pills
[i wish] hungry
[x] thirsty
[] drinking something
[ ] eating something
[i wish ] under 100lbs
[starting friday] starving myself
[ ] participating in a fast
[pretty much] vegan

PEOPLE -
[x] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[my brother] call me fat
[x] say I’m skinny
[] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[x] force me to eat
[ ] say I eat too much
[x] wish I’d eat more
[x] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic
[x] have tried to stop me


I WISH -
[x] I was thin
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn't have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[x] I was under 110lbs--psh, under 90.
[x] I could avoid food
[ ] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was prettier
[x] I could stop being ana/mia
[ ] I had a boy/girlfriend
[x] I could disappear


I LOVE -
[x] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference
[ ] shaking
[ ] being weak
[x] losing weight
[ ] being anorexic/bulimic
[ ] green tea
[ ] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself - though this never happens.


I HATE -
[x] when people stare
[x] being asked questions
[x] having to eat
[ ] being single
[x] wearing short skirts
[x] being fat
[x] looking ugly
[x] feeling this way
[ ] fat people


I NEED -
[x] more support
[x] people to stay out of my business
[x] more friends
[ ] someone to know
[x] less food
[x] more water
[x] a gym membership
[ ] to lose 50 lbs
[x] to lose 30 lbs
[x] to lose 10 lbs